When something takes place that feels like it has completely thrown me off-course and has a huge impact and I'm struggling to "fix it", I often wonder "why God, why is this or that happening, why can't things just be simple? There's a simple solution, why can't this just work?" And then comes the thought of one of these days in Heaven I'm going to ask God why things had to be this way.
Interestingly though when that thought recently crossed my mind as I was upset and struggling, I had a moment of a new understanding . . . an "Aha!" moment you could say, but I it wasn't something that just came to me of my own accord. I truly believe that the Lord was using this thought to settle me down from my constant need to fix things. As I was struggling through the hurt and frustration and the "I'm going to ask Him why one day", it hit me that when I get to Heaven and see my Savior, all of the "why's" will no longer matter. You see my focus will be solely on worshiping my Lord and Savior.
Moments later I read 2 Corinthians 5 and I began to realize that my need for answers why is an earthy desire. What I need to do is continue leaning and depending on Him knowing that He works all things together for good for those who love Him (Romans 8:28). I need to try to look at each situation from what He may be teaching me and what He has planned and rely on Him to provide the solution in His time.
I know I'll still want to swing into Ms Fixer mode, it's a force of habit. But hopefully now, when those situations that seem like they need fixing but I just can't fix them happen, I'll settle back and rest in Him and focus my thoughts on being pleasing to Him (2 Corinthians 5:9) and less on worrying and fixing the issue even if it feels like it will destroy me.
2 Corinthians 5:1-9
"For we know that if the earthly tent which is our house is torn down, we have a building from God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. For indeed in this house we groan, longing to be clothed with our dwelling from heaven, inasmuch as we, having put it on, will not be found naked. For indeed while we are in this tent, we groan, being burdened, because we do not want to be unclothed but to be clothed, so that what is mortal will be swallowed up by life. Now He who prepared us for this very purpose is God, who gave to us the Spirit as a pledge. Therefore, being always of good courage, and knowing that while we are at home in the body we are absent from the Lord— for we walk by faith, not by sight— we are of good courage, I say, and prefer rather to be absent from the body and to be at home with the Lord. Therefore we also have as our ambition, whether at home or absent, to be pleasing to Him."
